shyne3434: One day man, you're gonna find some sort of fucking extreme happiness

onlylivefortoday: you really think?

shyne3434: Yep, you deserve it for all the searching

Food Not Bombs #1 today went really well. The usual group that was doing it in Santa Barbara before kind of fell off, so today - Chris, Sara, Scott, and I cooked all the food and brought it downtown to the library. Clay came down to help serve and hang with us, and one of the dudes from the infoshop was rad and brought us some utensils. It was a good day. Our menu included: mushroom broth soup with zucchini, mushrooms, brown rice, corn, and some seasonings, fruit salad with peaches, watermelon, blueberries, grapes, pineapple, and apples, peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, plus a bunch of extra stuff to just have people grab if they wanted. 99.9% of it was all dumpstered and 100% was vegan.


Last night after I finished working at the beach, Chris and I got some food and met up with Sara to go to the Alpha and Omega/Pressvre show at Casa de la Rasa. It was boring. However, playing hangman and fooling around was fun. Dalan took my camera and was just taking random pictures the whole night.

That dude in the black tshirt was shadowboxing the wall during Downpresser, and then jumped off the PA speaker which was super high off the ground into some kids. Soo awkward/funny to watch. I was more into backflips than bro-dom.


Been having some worthwhile adventures here in Santa Barbara. Soon, when I actually have the time to sit down and write an actual entry about what's been going on, I will.

"we're still young as fuck. we've got plenty of time to screw up and move around and see things."

Got to spend some time here, just hanging around and reading in the sun, before I went to work today.

"The connection was good. I could hear her breathing in the spaces between our words. How do you talk to the real person whose ghost has haunted you? How do you tell the difference between the two?

"Listen," I said. "I'm sorry about everything."
"Me, too."
"What's going to happen to us?" I asked her and wished I had the answer for myself.
"I don't know," she said. "I want to change the world."

These days, living alone in Spokane, I wish I lived closer to the river, to the falls where ghosts of salmon jump. I wish I could sleep. I put down my paper or book and turn off all the lights, lie quietly in the dark. It may take hours, even years, for me to sleep again. There's nothing surprising or disappointing in that.

I know how all my dreams end anyway."

Recent playlist:

Nas - "Nigger"
Bad Brains - "I Against I"
Innerpartysystem - "The Download EP"
Justice - "[Cross]"
Madvillain - "Madvillainy"
7 Generations - "To See The End"
Cam'ron - "Purple Haze"


Those are some more photos from the art collective show last night. The underground event was in two graffiti tunnels near La Cumbre Plaza, organized by the Gorilla Art Collective. It was really cool - a ton of artists and people into viewing art all getting together on their Saturday night to partake in a completely 'guerrilla' community organized art exhibit, away from the bourgeois bullshit art galleries in Santa Barbara. Everyone was there just to share their art, not any sort of pretentiousness.

"The Gorilla Art Collective is a small group of young local artists interested in the production of unique, inventive and fun ways of getting the community involved in a more "outside of the box" kind of art scene."

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I'm having so much fun in Santa Barbara. Today was my last day working at Paddle Sports on West Beach. I now work full time at American Apparel downtown. Nate's girlfriend hooked me up with the job which rules. I've worked a few times already, and I'm into it. I fill the floor and listen to music as loud as I want downstairs in the basement. My class is going well. Dan is coming out to see me the first week in October. My brother might be coming around the same time. My mom is flying me home for two weeks in December for the holidays. That's gonna be my only time back in Connecticut for a while most likely, so if you wanna hang, don't forget to get in touuchhh.

Sometimes, I don't feel really 'busy' here.. but I am. I'm doing good. Santa Barbara definitely isn't home for good, but it rules now.

+ Casey's guerrilla art show tonight in the graffiti tunnels
+ Trader Joe's dumpsters
+ Adventures with Chris, Dalan, and Eva = always super fun/tiring in the best way.

I'll update/write more later. Just wanted to get some pictures up before I actually have the time to sit down and write..

Note to self: Stop fucking this up.

I just got home from bringing Nick back to Santa Ana :( This weekend was so much fun, true bummer to see it be over now.

:)

EAST COAST IN CALIFORNIA!!


NICK WILL BE HERE THIS WEEKEND!

DAN IS COMING THE FIRST WEEK IN OCTOBER, FOR SURE!

VERSE IS DOING A WEEKEND W/ KILLING THE DREAM!

HAVE HEART IS PLAYING HALLOWEEN NIGHT!


stoked! oh, and I finally got a skateboard for $25 today. and I hopefully will be able to volunteer at Bici Centro next Tuesday to build my own bike for free!

Also, this article is great and was just featured in the recent Adbusters #79; the article is called "Hipsters: The Dead End of Western Civilization".

"While previous youth movements have challenged the dysfunction and decadence of their elders, today we have the "hipster" - a youth subculture that mirrors the doomed shallowness of mainstream society."

Check it out here in full color w/ pictures: Hipsters: The Dead End of Western Civilization.

I got this little journal, "BOOKS TO READ", one day in Boston before I left home. I saw this list of suggested reading for an MFA program at some university, and have taken it upon myself to independently try to follow this particular list's recommendations of books to read in each category of literature. Hence, I've started writing down titles and authors of assorted fiction books to get and read. I have about one page, front and back, finished so far. I have read too many books about history and resistance and social theory. I should complete my library with a more rounded fiction section of great literature.

If you have any recommendations for me, leave a comment or message me in some other medium. No Stephen King or some bullshit novel like that. Or if you wanna see the MFA list/the books I've chosen to read, let me know.

I started Samuel Beckett's "Molloy" this evening, and I really like it so far. I can't so much pin down yet why I am so intrigued by Beckett's style of writing, but the story is so under developed that its good. Here's a little excerpt if it:

"But it is not the kind of place where you go, but where you find yourself, sometimes, not knowing how, and which you can not leave at will, and where you find yourself without any pleasure, but with more perhaps than in those places you can escape from, by making an effort, places full of mystery, full of familiar mysteries. I listen and the voice is of a world collapsing endlessly, a frozen world, under a faint untroubled sky, enough to see by, and yes, frozen too."

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I've been toying with the idea of changing my major/s around and doing something with sociology or creative writing or ethnic studies or just English. Not really too sure what I'm going to do yet. I just wrote a short story about my Dad a few nights ago, and I really like it a lot. Who knows.

I'm picking up Nick in LA on Saturday night with Dalan, and then hanging out all weekend with him until Monday night when I bring him back to LA. Stoked. Tomorrow morning, I have class and then at night is First Thursday as well as Bici Centro, the bike co-op, is open so I can try to get a new bike instead of my well over 30lb three speed "hunker".